when you hear me speak my mind

😥
the only time was that faithful day when we stayed up all night .. Other than that night I can’t remember when else …

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daily path in my life …

challenge or test ?

everyday being a non-Malay Muslim is filled with challenges 🙂 it’s something which the “born Muslims” in this part of the world would not understand.. simple reason : stereotyping ! being Muslim don’t mean being a Malay.. Dressed covered up don’t mean Malay..
why not be a “modern Muslim” some say (-.-)||| sianz !
need to find a Muslim friendly place to live without being labeled >.< Religion has no race ! God don't see your skin color to love u ^.^

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BoyFirend ?!?(>.<)?!?

A REAL BOYFRIEND

Don’t care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I …don’t care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don’t let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she’s quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she’s beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don’t say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she’s scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn’t answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her’s and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it’s over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

– Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
– When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go
– When she says she’s ok don’t believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you
– Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she’s all that matters to you
– Stay up all night with her when she’s sick
– Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s stupid
– Give her the world.
– Let her wear your clothes
-When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she’s important.
– Don’t talk about other girls around her
– Kiss her in the pouring rain
– When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
“Whose ass am i kicking baby?”

… ok .. it’s because i don’t have a boyfriend & have a husband :s that’s why …(-.-)…

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personal note

those people who can make your day can also fuck up your day !
some attitudes were not necessary & sometimes i feel many do not tell U off just becos they cannot be bothered to fight with such ego.
i do have my attitude too – pms gets my blood boiling easier & frankly you just tipped the scale off !!!
 
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where have I been…

asking where have I been ? well I’m lost myself too.. ..
humm.. okay medications do have side effects, tested personally & proven. .
slipped into a depression state and fortunately managed to figure myself out. .
for now I shall refrain from typing the wrong things hence this stops here for now..

D

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sun sea fun…

recent duty dive trip to Tioman-Malaysia…

it was fun 🙂
sayang was so sweet to try to surprise me but tho "mission failed" but yet, it’s really good to know the effort was there..
could tell he tried to only let me know when we get there.. tho there was no re-enactment of how we "bump" into one another at Mersing Jetty :p
we had to stay over at Sweet Hotel & had "lar kopi session" at the coffee shop ;b to witness Rafi having sugar high on a "teah manis"=milk tea more sweet =p (the uncle’s ratio was 2tea:1-sweetened milk)
the crowd i had with me was amazing, an old friend whom i have not dived with in the last 10yrs ; a bunch of lively interesting new friends 🙂

the sea was calm… …
journey to the tioman island was smooth & at certain parts of the ride, it was almost mirror flat 🙂

the sun was hot… …
we had clear blue skies almost thruout the weekend.. made the visibility underwater fantastic too :p

well tho with all the fun in the sea with bright mr sun, it was sad to know the coral bleaching is getting worst.. many many corals were white.. almost tot it snowed underwater..
pictures in my facebook showed the signs of our planet screaming for help big time..apparently i google searched & found out some coral bleaching could be reversed.. but not all.. percentage is rather slim 😦
 
so much for now..
D

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why do U love me ?

suddenly i start wondering & pondering over the question to myself, why do you love me..
there seems to be lack of answers.. not only to the question i state above but also to many things yet uncertain..

maybe i thought wrong that there would be someone out there who would love me the way i love, but then again it seems i never known such a being..yet at times like many times, I think – I think wrong..Do not do what we do not want others to do to you ~ i know this well and hold on to this phrase still. .

All I ask is to have someone to love me the way I will, is it really that hard ?
till the time I figure it out, well ,") ahead I still look.. seek & I may or may not find..

D

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let me be happy…

there has been so many things going on all at the same time.. ..
many do not understand even if they are the closest to you..
in life too many things seem like a dream or fairy tale..

tho we may be happy with our own theories or way of life,
there will always be those who will not understand or comprehend.

the closest people may bring the most joy ~ but in return they bring many disappointment as well.. ..

I wish all me sisters out there to be happy..
as long as they are with their own lives, I would be happy for them too.. 
My only wish is I would be happy in my life too.

Big Hugs & Kiss..
love D
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kept awake >.<

yes it’s late at nite..the snoooring volume in my ears are up..
okay you must be tired (,") will try to put the pillow over your face then I try to get some sleep =p

hugz,
Di

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so fast , yet at times seems so slow…

time seem to have gone by faster then it should have, but yet at times it seem to be only days & months.
Recently found some perpatually in-denial phsyco which amazingly resembles the class 95 advertistment..
apprently there were writings accusing me of something not so me or would notbe me at all !!! "breath & count from 1-10"
not gonna brew over that as MyLove would handle it :b I trust he would, I keep my fingers crossed..
 
well so much for the 1% of upsetting times…
Times are getting better & actually thoughtof erasing some stuff I previously wrote in here.. but after thinking Nahhh..
 let it be.. I am who I am & people do change & grow up in time.. thinkings change & methods of handeling stuff will too..
in this time of my life all seems a bit weird in may of it’s own ways.. ..
lying in bed heading to dream land soon & the noise from his game rite at my ear..
 
humm thought of someone who maybe able to help in understanding the physco :b you know where you are 🙂
 
hugz..
with love D
 
 
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